Get Up

First, before I start my long-as-hell speech, I gotta tell you that this is gonna be a personal thing. Well, not so personal actually. This is about someone I know. Someone I know well; someone I've known for years. Yeah, I can say I know her well, quite well. 

So that girl, yeah, I've known her for years. We're close to each other and she's told me lots of secrets. I can say that I'm the one whom she relies on. I'm one of her greatest listeners. I've listened to her stories all night long on phone. But what happened to her recently has shocked me and eventually it led me to.. Well, I'm not saying that I hate her but I just don't like it when she starts being so blue over problems she should have solved much much much earlier. 

Okay. Let's say that she has fallen into the same fire pit over and over again. That's the problem.

The problem is not that people keep bothering and hurting her; the problem itself actually lies in her. She has let negativity empower her and it results on her rejecting people's advice. I wish she would really listen to me when she came to me and asked me for advice but she didn't. She would come up with lots of excuses and I'd eventually have nothing else to say so what remained was "I'm so sorry to hear that. Cheer up. Be tough, girl". It has happened for times so I can say that I'm kind of fed up of that. Then what was the purpose of me giving her advice while she herself didn't want to listen to it and thought that everything was wrong? Then what was right? What is right when everything's so wrong? 

When you have problems and you come to your friend, asking him or her for advice, then he or she gives you one but you reject it, and there comes another one and you reject it again, how does your friend feel? Or let's say that your friend has given you advice so that you won't fall into the same problem but you do and you complain like falling into the same problem is not your problem--it's someone else pushing you into that problem. If you were that friend, how would you feel? Well if I were that friend, I'd feel disappointed and disrespected. Where have you been? Were you really listening to my advice? Wasn't it you who came to me and ask for advice so that you won't fall into the same problem over and over again? 

She's told me several times that she'd give up on life. She's told me several times and that has made me numb. Sometimes it comes to my mind that.. Well, do whatever you want, girl. Jump over the bridge, or hang yourself, or sip a cup of cyanide.. oh I don't care. She's been complaining about life too much and it bothers me like fuck. 

Remember this. Giving up on life and committing suicide would just show the world that you're a coward. It's okay if you fail or if you don't get what you want. It's okay to feel hurt. It's okay to cry. But remember that you are not going to feel hurt and cry for the rest of your life so get up and make your own happiness. When you fail and you think of yourself being a loser.. That's okay. At least you've tried, and you should not stop trying. When problem comes to you, solve it. When it keeps disturbing you, try hard to make it go away. Don't give up on life because it means that you just quit the game and that's so coward. 

Life sucks and everyone knows it, even rich people know that life sucks. Problems are always there and they would come to you, no matter if you're rich or poor, young or old. The moment I think of this sinister world sucking my life, I remember the lives of poor people I've seen living under flyover bridges and how they wish to have life like mine. 

When problem comes, face it. Solve it and make it go away. Get up. 

Oh, I thought this is gonna be a long-as-fuck speech. I end up typing this long, and.. being speechless.